Sunday, December 23, 2007

心烦

到底……有什么东西我能够真的真的是自己得到……
完全自己拥有……
就连车子……我都必须靠妈妈……
难道就没有办法???
现在……好想……好想……
离家……
很多很多东西……还是无法做主……
当然……某些事物……是一定不能做主……
因为,必须要你甘我愿的……
你都不接受,难道我能做任何事吗?
当然没有咯……
就只有这样……
等吧……
等待那感觉流失吧~
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Saturday, December 22, 2007

乐与悲

乐与悲……
永远都无法分开……就像爱情般……一男一女……
少了一方就不能体会全面的意义……
你是否能够真的辨认出什么是乐,当你没有过悲呢?
当然你是辨认不出……因为人类……有了一个习惯……
就是鉴别每件事物……认同吗?
人生有起有落是必然的……
当然……有谁想一直活在逆境中?你想?我想?
哈哈……
有时,乐与悲会同时出现……
当然并非在同分同秒……也许会是在一秒之差……
那是没法避免的事情……注定的多与少……没人能决定……

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其实……这思想只是在我脑中一瞬间的闪过……
因为……看见了…在一个聚会里……确实看到了很多很多……
很多真的让我顿悟的事物……
众所周知,每个人都有个人的性格……
当然,很难去列出每个性格……
有些人,就是习惯用最坏的想法去看事情。
这习惯,有些人认为是很emo……
但是,为何不用另一方面想呢?
为何不能说他是不想有那种事件发生,所以用那种想法呢?
或者,可以说……
他想用最坏的事件作底线,然后再办事呢?
当然,这可以说他有些缺乏信心。
但是,何谓见得用正面的想法看事就有信心?
过分信心难道就是好吗??
有些人,用正面想…
难道,他一定能达到拿目标?

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当然,我还是认为,全面想法是最好……



X_x
好乱哦……
越说越离开了主题……
无论如何,我好希望,每个人都能真的领悟每件事物……
**of course will....**
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈………………
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6r gathering

Had organized a small gathering for my primary 6 classmates..
yet, the attendance was a little disappointed...
supposingly should have around 30++ friends....
but, it's ok~ at least the gathering was really fun...
met up friends which most of them were lost contact for years.
Hmm... wasn't that bad... at least has 13 person i think...
hmm.. 4 gals... 2 turn to be pretty girls now...
=P
the other 2 lerh... erhm.... still at the stage where...
still an ordinary gal?? =P
kekeke...
anyway... jz crapping around... lol... it was really fun to meet them up..
and had chit chat around.. yet, i still feel alil awkward...
maybe... i thought too much i think...
lol...
nvm...
jz forget it..
at least...
got to meet them up..
and talk around... know each other's latest info... =P
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Wednesday, December 19, 2007

突然的回忆

一瞬间……
我被我的思想带到了几个月前……
我还记得……
当时……
最短……最短……最短……
最短的回忆……
从第一眼……
到最后一眼……
历历在目……
为何就是无法把它忘了???
好想好想……
把它忘得一干二净……
那么……不就不会那么辛苦了吗?
但是……
有如此简单的事情吗??
从当时……
至今……
我变了……
真的变了……
变得……无法预测……
是什么原因……
因为怕了?
怕再次的遇上不到两星期的回忆?
好辛苦……

好辛苦………………

好苦…………

苦………………
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Tuesday, December 18, 2007

朋友之间出了危机

怎么办好……
友情危机出现在我四周了……
为何每年都一定要有友情危机发生在我身上?
我好不明白……
感觉告诉我我做错……
但是我到底错在哪???
也许……我还是一样……
如此的爱单独一个人……
如此的爱思考事故吧~
但是……这有错?
好……也许是我的错……
不该把两件事放在一起看……
但是……该怎么办?
这边跟william发生事……
而且是并不非常明白的事……
那边……开妹又不知啥事……
而且……
最近……很少很少跟健禄谈天……
感觉好像……距离好远好远……
好想……一个人……留在大学宿舍……
一个人……然后……一个人走完整个校园……
孤独一个人……享受一下那大自然……
好想一个人静下来……
但是……
我可以吗?
可以吗………………
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Monday, December 17, 2007

a conversation striked during a movie was on...

Sam :"We seriously cant be friends?" -17/dec/2007 3:47am

This was sent in the early early morning.. i was not asleep yet.. but was thinking of sth...

and i jz sent it to William...

Then...

on today... Monday... i went to watch movie wif my best fren, Aaron, wif accompaniment of Shi Chau and Yat Meng... And he only reply me... and all of these is our sms conversations....





William :"Yes! I can't be fren wif an emo guy. I cant have one stupid guy ruinin my day wif his stupid emo sentences. If u can't stand my critism, then u wan emo, go emo wif the wall or whoeva. ok? dun come find me. U wan shit go shit urself, dun shit wif me.... Tats all i hav to say..." -17/dec/2007 2:55pm

Sam :"Hey.. You noe wat? If you think i emo everyday.. Then i hav nth to say.. Everyday asked you out you will always bz.. Think yourself!! Wanted to be friend and you will jz ignore me.. Now you say I'm emo all the time.. K fine.. Wont disturb you anymore.. I cant believe i hav such image in your mind." -17/dec/2007 2:59pm

william :"U dun believe? Go ask ur fren...U always msg me nonsense, u so free go do somethin else.... I dun have all the time to report my life stuffs to u!" -17/dec/2007 3:02pm

Sam :"Everytime asked you for lunch or dinner.. Everytime say bz.. I still Rmbr last time you were driving.. you said having lunch together.. but in a sudden u were on phone so i waited you while i put my bag.. Then you jz went off.. Sent you msg where you going to eat and you nvr reply me" -17/dec/2007 3:04pm

William :"Am i being busy now a prob?? I like my life being busy, is it tat i muz be busy wif u only? I hav my gang of frenz ok! U're not my freakin whoeva..." -17/dec/2007 3:08pm

Sam :"I asked you for lunch.. Not wanna check out where are you all the time.. Ask you to go eat is Jz during lunch or dinner time.. And now you say i asking you all the time?! You too exaggerate it ok!? Because i ask you for lunch or dinner and you say i checking you all the time!!? Fine.. You are more emo than me then.. You can ask joshua.. Everytime i ask you for lunch or dinner you say bz.. Having with hsemates.. Ask him wat is his react.. Ask la.. Not i wanna say anything.. If you dun like me.. Jz say it out loud.. K?!" -17/dec/2007 3:09pm

William :'' Ya, now i say i dun like coz u very fan, emo, n irritating, happy? OK?? Dun bother me anymore... U go enjoy ur life, i'll enjoy mine..." -17/dec/2007 3:11pm

Sam :"Ok.. Since you say i wan you hav sum time with me.. Then I'm sorry.. i nvr think of that.. Jz at least hav sum meal together for several times? Since you dun wan.. Forget it then.. Nvr force you to join us K?" -17/dec/2007 3:12pm

Sam :"Ok.. Fine.. Since you hate me to the fullest, i will not gonna let you feel so suffering anymore.. Can? Nvr wanna make you being so angry k? Since you are being so freak off because of me.. I will jz leave.." -17/dec/2007 3:14pm

William :" Yea wateva! go think wats ur prob... I hav no prob wif the rest... So think... N stop talkin shit before u start thinkin... " -17/dec/2007 3:16pm

Sam :"you say I'm not thinking? You are not ok with me because i asked you to intro her to me... And i knoe it jz turns to be the gap between us.. Since the gap is wider and wider.. I hav nth to say.." -17/dec/2007 3:19pm

William :"I stick to my words, i wanted to intro, but u made me chnge my mind. So wat made me change my mind? GO THINK LA!!! Wats wtrong wif u la, talking lots of bullshit... If u hav nth to say, then keep quiet la! I'm not free to entertain u!!" -17/dec/2007 3:23pm

Sam :"I cant even see you online in msn for so many days.. No matter when.. I jz cant contact you.. In a proper manner proper words.. proper talk.." -17/dec/2007 3:25pm

William :"U think i wanna talk to u? U only sweat and giv negative replies, u not calling that fuckin emo? Then u got fuckin prob wif ur brain..." -17/dec/2007 3:27pm

Sam :"ONLY?! I'm sorry!!? Make it clear wei! Wanted ask you stuff. and you jz lazy to reply me..in short time.. So fine.. All is my fault.. Since you are jz blaming all on me.. Cant believe i'm jz all time emo guy in yr mind" -17/dec/2007 3:32pm

William :"Well u r! Its undeniable fact! Ok, no time to bloody change ur brain, as u say, i'm super busy." -17/dec/2007 3:34pm

Sam :"You seriously nvr noe me.. You can ask everyone around me.. Since you are so bz.. I hav no way to change my image in your mind.. You nvr give me the time" -17/dec/2007 3:36pm

Sam :"Sweat is the most common word i use to msn.. N now you say it's emo.. You are extremely criticizing the meaning of sweat of mine!! I did not use negagtive words all the time kay.. If you tell me you nvr feel down.. Then you are not human being.." -17/dec/2007 5:14pm

William :"Eh, can u shut it? I'm already bloody pissed by u, shut the fuck now... Ok?" -17/dec/2007 5:16pm

Sam :"Ok.. Ok.. Ok.. Sorry K? Hope to see you in msn soon" -17/dec/2007 5:18pm

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saw that??

i jz cant believe that i hav such a bad image in my fren's mind...

yes...

i know that i seems to be treated him as batu loncatan..

but i'm truthly... nvr think of that...

these turns to be a very long story if i really wanna touch on it..

i jz wanted to know sumone.. and he is such a weird guy...

i jz seriously cant know him... cant get close to him... and he jz say i'm emo!?

omg..

i jz cant belif that everytime ppl jz say i'm emo...

when we were havin outgoing... did i looked emo????

nvr rite!?!?

that's true! i nvr being emo when havin outgoing!!

but in msn?? who knows!!? it's time where i'm alone!!

and i can jz think alot of things...

ok fine... think alot of things.. might bring me to be alil emo...

but i'm sorry larh...

i nvr think that it turns everything to be like that okay!?!?!

GOD DAMN!!!!!! argh.....
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Sunday, December 16, 2007

automobile

today, i will touch on automobile. First of all, automobile has 2 transmission rite??
automatic and manual transmission...
ok, within this 2 transmissions, which transmission will u choose?
for me, i will choose manual... but first and foremost, pls make this clear!
i'm not those guys who love to speed or do any stunts wif automobile!!!
i choose manual jz becoz of other reason...
the first reason is because i dun like to hear the engine sound to be so extremely loud while
driving auto cars... the sound will be loud and then only it will change gear..
next thing is jz sth that i dun like only..
auto consumes alot of petrol.. yes, i know that my mom dun mind paying for the petrol..
but i dun wan pay more jz becoz of petrol!!!
oh yea...
on top of that, i love manual is becoz i can shift the gear =P
and there has a thing that you might feel weird...
i will be more focus on driving if i'm driving manual...
becoz i havt control the gear and the stearing...
yes... maybe sooner or later after driving manual car for months...
i might be hav the same thing as driving auto...
but IT JZ MIGHT BE!!
eventhough it might hav the almost same condition..
yet it won't be the exactly the same!!!
ok fine..
let's be more rational....
manual cars will be giving troubles to driver when there has traffic jam...
but i think... even traffic jam i also wont be jam for hours everytime i met traffic jam bah...
ok, i know auto can save our energy when havin traffic jam...
but u havt think...
everytime u drive auto.. u havt pay more petrol for it...
even maintainance fee will be higher too...
becoz of the engine thingy...
of course, manual's clutch havt change occassionally...
yet it juz costs few hundred.... compared to auto??
i'm sorry... it is far way too cossy....
got money also not to spend on such things bah~~~
but it is a must to spend on those "big" cars... becoz no manual..
but how am i going to tell my mom that manual will be better for me??!!!??
she insist to listen to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!(@*#&!&#^%*!(@*$^)!@#)*!
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爱情

dun 我是一个,很难专一的男生。也许是这样,到现在都无法得到女友吧……
说花心,说不上;说不专一,又说不上;那么,我到底是啥???
最近,在校园内见到一位……
别人会说并不怎样美的女生,但是是我喜欢的类型……
我已试了很多很多方法去认识她……
但是,她看来好像……完全不理睬我……
见到我,还会绕道而行……
近距离都会选择走长路……你说好奇吗???
我真的有这么“厉害”吗??
难道,我真的如此的可怕?
唉~
算?我又并不是那种人……
但是看见这种情况,心又酸……
怎么办??
怎么办才好???
不过……还是会继续等待……
也许会有结果出现……
那么,我就耐心等待吧……
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Friday, December 14, 2007

UNiM Sem 2

at last...
i have back to my own blog...
though i have viewed my friends' blogs, and had the aggressive to write blog at that moment,
yet i din..
i had just finish simply done my Test 2 for this semester, sem one (2nd semester for foundation).
this semester has full of ups and downs.. seriously very suffering for me.
maybe it shouldnt be that suffering... but i made myself to be suffering...
it sounds funny... yet it is true...
first of all, there had sum sxxxxd thingy happened between me and sumone which made me seriously
very unhappy.. i din talk to that sumone at all... for this semester at all...
i hope i won't talk to her forever.... the attitude she shows on me... extremely made me pissed..
aaaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiiiiiihhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....................
anyway..
besides that, i met 1 gal in school... who actually i really wanna know her...
but seems that there has sumone hu thought that i treated him as batu loncatan...
and doesnt really join me anymore for few weeks..... ( basically is since he knew i wanna noe her)
it sounds extremely ridiculous!!!!
hey, come on... if u say u like her... jz say.... am i rite?
i know, no matter wat, i still have no chance de...
SENIOR, do u think the relationship will last as long as i thought of??
i wonder...
seriously wonders.... dont you?
hmm....
hope everything will be fine as long as now is having 3 weeks holiday~~~
yahoo~~~~~~~
test 2 done!!!! test 1 OVER~~~~
left....
FINAL TEST!??!??!?!?!
ooommmgggg........
extremely crazy wei!!!
after 3 weeks holz.... exam?
=p
that's cewl..
lol...
hmm..
that's all for this topic i think....
next topic pls~
XD
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