Had organized a small gathering for my primary 6 classmates.. yet, the attendance was a little disappointed... supposingly should have around 30++ friends.... but, it's ok~ at least the gathering was really fun... met up friends which most of them were lost contact for years. Hmm... wasn't that bad... at least has 13 person i think... hmm.. 4 gals... 2 turn to be pretty girls now... =P the other 2 lerh... erhm.... still at the stage where... still an ordinary gal?? =P kekeke... anyway... jz crapping around... lol... it was really fun to meet them up.. and had chit chat around.. yet, i still feel alil awkward... maybe... i thought too much i think... lol... nvm... jz forget it.. at least... got to meet them up.. and talk around... know each other's latest info... =P
Sam :"We seriously cant be friends?" -17/dec/2007 3:47am
This was sent in the early early morning.. i was not asleep yet.. but was thinking of sth...
and i jz sent it to William...
on today... Monday... i went to watch movie wif my best fren, Aaron, wif accompaniment of Shi Chau and Yat Meng... And he only reply me... and all of these is our sms conversations....
William :"Yes! I can't be fren wif an emo guy. I cant have one stupid guy ruinin my day wif his stupid emo sentences. If u can't stand my critism, then u wan emo, go emo wif the wall or whoeva. ok? dun come find me. U wan shit go shit urself, dun shit wif me.... Tats all i hav to say..." -17/dec/2007 2:55pm
Sam:"Hey.. You noe wat? If you think i emo everyday.. Then i hav nth to say.. Everyday asked you out you will always bz.. Think yourself!! Wanted to be friend and you will jz ignore me.. Now you say I'm emo all the time.. K fine.. Wont disturb you anymore.. I cant believe i hav such image in your mind." -17/dec/2007 2:59pm
william:"U dun believe? Go ask ur fren...U always msg me nonsense, u so free go do somethin else.... I dun have all the time to report my life stuffs to u!" -17/dec/2007 3:02pm
Sam :"Everytime asked you for lunch or dinner.. Everytime say bz.. I still Rmbr last time you were driving.. you said having lunch together.. but in a sudden u were on phone so i waited you while i put my bag.. Then you jz went off.. Sent you msg where you going to eat and you nvr reply me" -17/dec/2007 3:04pm
William:"Am i being busy now a prob?? I like my life being busy, is it tat i muz be busy wif u only? I hav my gang of frenz ok! U're not my freakin whoeva..." -17/dec/2007 3:08pm
Sam :"I asked you for lunch.. Not wanna check out where are you all the time.. Ask you to go eat is Jz during lunch or dinner time.. And now you say i asking you all the time?! You too exaggerate it ok!? Because i ask you for lunch or dinner and you say i checking you all the time!!? Fine.. You are more emo than me then.. You can ask joshua.. Everytime i ask you for lunch or dinner you say bz.. Having with hsemates.. Ask him wat is his react.. Ask la.. Not i wanna say anything.. If you dun like me.. Jz say it out loud.. K?!" -17/dec/2007 3:09pm
William:'' Ya, now i say i dun like coz u very fan, emo, n irritating, happy? OK?? Dun bother me anymore... U go enjoy ur life, i'll enjoy mine..." -17/dec/2007 3:11pm
Sam:"Ok.. Since you say i wan you hav sum time with me.. Then I'm sorry.. i nvr think of that.. Jz at least hav sum meal together for several times? Since you dun wan.. Forget it then.. Nvr force you to join us K?" -17/dec/2007 3:12pm
Sam:"Ok.. Fine.. Since you hate me to the fullest, i will not gonna let you feel so suffering anymore.. Can? Nvr wanna make you being so angry k? Since you are being so freak off because of me.. I will jz leave.." -17/dec/2007 3:14pm
William:" Yea wateva! go think wats ur prob... I hav no prob wif the rest... So think... N stop talkin shit before u start thinkin... " -17/dec/2007 3:16pm
Sam :"you say I'm not thinking? You are not ok with me because i asked you to intro her to me... And i knoe it jz turns to be the gap between us.. Since the gap is wider and wider.. I hav nth to say.." -17/dec/2007 3:19pm
William :"I stick to my words, i wanted to intro, but u made me chnge my mind. So wat made me change my mind? GO THINK LA!!! Wats wtrong wif u la, talking lots of bullshit... If u hav nth to say, then keep quiet la! I'm not free to entertain u!!" -17/dec/2007 3:23pm
Sam:"I cant even see you online in msn for so many days.. No matter when.. I jz cant contact you.. In a proper manner proper words.. proper talk.." -17/dec/2007 3:25pm
William:"U think i wanna talk to u? U only sweat and giv negative replies, u not calling that fuckin emo? Then u got fuckin prob wif ur brain..." -17/dec/2007 3:27pm
Sam :"ONLY?! I'm sorry!!? Make it clear wei! Wanted ask you stuff. and you jz lazy to reply me..in short time.. So fine.. All is my fault.. Since you are jz blaming all on me.. Cant believe i'm jz all time emo guy in yr mind" -17/dec/2007 3:32pm
William :"Well u r! Its undeniable fact! Ok, no time to bloody change ur brain, as u say, i'm super busy." -17/dec/2007 3:34pm
Sam:"You seriously nvr noe me.. You can ask everyone around me.. Since you are so bz.. I hav no way to change my image in your mind.. You nvr give me the time" -17/dec/2007 3:36pm
Sam :"Sweat is the most common word i use to msn.. N now you say it's emo.. You are extremely criticizing the meaning of sweat of mine!! I did not use negagtive words all the time kay.. If you tell me you nvr feel down.. Then you are not human being.." -17/dec/2007 5:14pm
William:"Eh, can u shut it? I'm already bloody pissed by u, shut the fuck now... Ok?" -17/dec/2007 5:16pm
Sam:"Ok.. Ok.. Ok.. Sorry K? Hope to see you in msn soon" -17/dec/2007 5:18pm
today, i will touch on automobile. First of all, automobile has 2 transmission rite?? automatic and manual transmission... ok, within this 2 transmissions, which transmission will u choose? for me, i will choose manual... but first and foremost, pls make this clear! i'm not those guys who love to speed or do any stunts wif automobile!!! i choose manual jz becoz of other reason... the first reason is because i dun like to hear the engine sound to be so extremely loud while driving auto cars... the sound will be loud and then only it will change gear.. next thing is jz sth that i dun like only.. auto consumes alot of petrol.. yes, i know that my mom dun mind paying for the petrol.. but i dun wan pay more jz becoz of petrol!!! oh yea... on top of that, i love manual is becoz i can shift the gear =P and there has a thing that you might feel weird... i will be more focus on driving if i'm driving manual... becoz i havt control the gear and the stearing... yes... maybe sooner or later after driving manual car for months... i might be hav the same thing as driving auto... but IT JZ MIGHT BE!! eventhough it might hav the almost same condition.. yet it won't be the exactly the same!!! ok fine.. let's be more rational.... manual cars will be giving troubles to driver when there has traffic jam... but i think... even traffic jam i also wont be jam for hours everytime i met traffic jam bah... ok, i know auto can save our energy when havin traffic jam... but u havt think... everytime u drive auto.. u havt pay more petrol for it... even maintainance fee will be higher too... becoz of the engine thingy... of course, manual's clutch havt change occassionally... yet it juz costs few hundred.... compared to auto?? i'm sorry... it is far way too cossy.... got money also not to spend on such things bah~~~ but it is a must to spend on those "big" cars... becoz no manual.. but how am i going to tell my mom that manual will be better for me??!!!?? she insist to listen to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !(@*#&!&#^%*!(@*$^)!@#)*!
at last... i have back to my own blog... though i have viewed my friends' blogs, and had the aggressive to write blog at that moment, yet i din.. i had just finish simply done my Test 2 for this semester, sem one (2nd semester for foundation). this semester has full of ups and downs.. seriously very suffering for me. maybe it shouldnt be that suffering... but i made myself to be suffering... it sounds funny... yet it is true... first of all, there had sum sxxxxd thingy happened between me and sumone which made me seriously very unhappy.. i din talk to that sumone at all... for this semester at all... i hope i won't talk to her forever.... the attitude she shows on me... extremely made me pissed.. aaaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiiiiiihhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.................... anyway.. besides that, i met 1 gal in school... who actually i really wanna know her... but seems that there has sumone hu thought that i treated him as batu loncatan... and doesnt really join me anymore for few weeks..... ( basically is since he knew i wanna noe her) it sounds extremely ridiculous!!!! hey, come on... if u say u like her... jz say.... am i rite? i know, no matter wat, i still have no chance de... SENIOR, do u think the relationship will last as long as i thought of?? i wonder... seriously wonders.... dont you? hmm.... hope everything will be fine as long as now is having 3 weeks holiday~~~ yahoo~~~~~~~ test 2 done!!!! test 1 OVER~~~~ left.... FINAL TEST!??!??!?!?! ooommmgggg........ extremely crazy wei!!! after 3 weeks holz.... exam? =p that's cewl.. lol... hmm.. that's all for this topic i think.... next topic pls~ XD
Hmm... Everyone is wearing a mask, undenyable... why i mentioned this? I had thought of my past life in my buddhist society, Qi Yuan ( Jetavana Monastry [JM]). I had made a discussion with 1 of my senior, Kuok Kang. He has told me alot of things which I know. I'm wondering now, maybe he is thinking that I'm hiding myself from exposing to the world, cheating myself. Yea, I did cheat myself sometimes. Yet, I still faced the fact in the end. I understand that no matter how I cheat myself, the fact will be still there. Hmm... Maybe lst night i was cheating myself, and cheating him as well. Anyway, I thought of everything we chatted the whole night. He has mentioned that the attitude I gave orders are impolite. Besides that, he did mention about my communication skills. In my way, what he mentioned are all communication skills, but he disagreed. Anyway, that's not the matter. As long as I got what i get from that discussion.
First of all, when I tell everything happened on me to him, he has stopped me. He has said that I'm cheating me myself instead of saying anything bout the issues. Hmm.. Maybe i was keep thinking in my way, I unable to pull myself out of it and think in other way. Oh yea, in the end of the discussion he did not reply me at all. I think it was because he felt that I'm keep cheating myself, never listen what he has told me. Now I kinda agree with it. I do admit it. I am cheating myself sometimes, especially some serious case happened. Now, i have faced it. He helped me out.. yet I think he is kinda dislike me now... :( anyway, He has made me understand that actually i should not continue with my current attitude. In my point view, attitude are included in the "Mask" i'm wearing. Therefore, as i need to change everything, i must change my attitude and my communication skills. If everything is changed, a lot of things will be going fine, smoothly.... I did think of getting rid of the mask, but i had not found any ways to do it. Now, since the mask is a MUST for us to use it. Then, why not we change the mask and use it in a good way? a better way instead? At least we won't face the problems again and again. In a way, everyone does say " we get experience from what we have done. Human are not scary because of doing wrong, yet because of do not admit it." I think all of you agree with it bah.. I'm really messed up with what i'm writting now.. BLUR!!!
around the corner? haha... is on this coming friday.... keh vin wants to bring me to get result tomorrow... but my best bud.. aaron wanted to go karaoke... hmm... wat can i do?? after the result collection... it will be around 3 i think... hmm.... how long more can we sing?? but i think... evening can go with teck seng... SKYMAXTER to go power ikano countdown bah... wow.... arent that too much activities? hahaha.... in a day... got 3 activities... but all gonna crash..... hmm.... but anyway, have been scolded by mom that went out with friends too much.... the activity LIST really too packed.... and never prepare some activities for families... actually i am thinking... what can i do... my family is a little MESSED UP... don't know wat activity.... shopping?? hahaha.... i bought too much cloths man... scolded so much that the wardrobe is fulled with my cloths... till unable to close the door fully... whilst my brother's wardrobe keeps openning... as there has no much cloths... XD wat to do... everytime when wanna go shopping complex... he will be sleeping for sure.... hahaha..... but now.. wanna buy 2 shirts.... kinda formal... but that costs 129 each... seems too exp... wat can i do now... hmm... hmm... hmm..... that's really the STYLE i lyk... where comes money? mom scold again... sigh sigh sigh..... nvm.... wait... there will be a day for me to buy it... kakaka..... let see..... how long more will be going baq to university... to start over my university life.. looking towards it...
the final test's result is out... what can i do now? i don't feel nervous.. nor feel scared... bout i'm just thinking... will i get the highest now? i know that i'm just thinking.. i will never get the highest anyway, it will be joshua.. mightbe... or maybe even those who study even better than us... who knows? hmm... maybe his/her luck is much better?? for instance, my IT, i had interest with computer so long... but end up i just got a satisfied result... i'm not really happy with it.. why? nothing much actually.. just because i lost to a guy who hates IT so much, joshua. haha... nothing much i think... just because i stayed awake whole night right be4 the IT test... the brain not working at all.. BULL SHIT!! this is the reason? no no no ..... wat to do... joshua is really talented... even in physics subjects... i was thinnking to win him... but i just cant really win him... i kept giving the excuse of making too much careless mistakes during the test... ha! ha! i just can't believe that i have became so 'kiasu'... i hope joshua, you won't hate me when u read this bah... sigh... i just really hope to show people that actually i'm really great too.... but i think i'm just being so childish... yea... there is someone really think that i'm so childish... haha... everyone does has the 'childish' character with them... just the character is different.... anyway, i will be really happy enough with the result as i can get pretty high... lol... how high will it be? i don't know yet... by tomorrow, 29/8/2007... i will be going back to university with 1 of my close friend, keh vin to get result.... and accompany him to get a washing machine??? haha... to wash himself... hahaha.... nah.. just kidding.... don't get mad man.... just to give his new housemate convinient... anyway, he is the hse owner's son... so of course... buying washing machine is his job and duty right? hahaha.... the word 'result' giving me a little tension.... especially english... i know myself kinda well... my english is really poor... i promised myself.. i will get my english better... ^^ hmm.... hmmm..... hmmmm....... let's jump to next article...
hmm.... the course i'm studying now... is paused!! hmm... for 2 1/2 months??? that's really long for a holiday... what can we do?? i don't really know wat to do... but... i tihnk i will jz hang around... hmm... from mid of july till end of sept... holiday holiday holiday.... hope everything can give me a gd memories.... X_X
it has been 3 months i did not update my blog. nothing much made me not to update. just that i have no mood to blog. i know that some of my friend out there are waiting for me to update my blog. anyway, that's really great to blog once again.. just wondering that when will be my next update. i'm here now just because of the sudden feel came to me right after reading 1 of my close friend's blog, jenghwan. though my english isn't as good as his, but i'm working out to improve it.
anyway, i'm here jz wanted to write something to keep my blog updated.. lol.... hmm... as i read through jenghwan's blog, "suburban soul".... it triggered my feelings... to write an article in this blog. i was thinking what to write here at first.. and i found somthing to write about. hmm..
since i did not write bout how was my uni life in The University of Nottingham, i will write bout it.. when i was in this uk university which has MALAYSIA CAMPUS.. hahaha... i'm really very happy to get into this university... but, i just don't know why i'm not really happy with the life.. maybe because i have get used with so-called 'chinese society' lifestyle.. In this university, there really has a lot of freedom, and i can control myself pretty well.. yet, i just don't really get used with the bunch of friends.. anyway, i wish to say sorry here to all of my friends.. i think i don't know what to say.... but i just hope that next sem everything will turn up right.. hmm... let's see....
oh ya... let's give a simple description bout the environment there... hmm... this university has 2 to 3 year old.. it is really big, yet it is just 1/3 of the UK campus.. hmm.. how big is this university? i don't really know... but i just know that it is located at the best location... ( compared to those university which is built in SELANGOR). hmm... i don't think a lot of people know where it is located.. hmm.. it is at a small village? or town... named semenyih.. near to kajang... anyway, that's not the thing i wanna say.. lol... it is really very inside to the forest part... hmm... not really forest.. but oil palm trees... hahaha... near this univeristy.. there has 3 Residential areas.... Taman Tasik Semenyih (TTS) 2,4,5. where goes the 3? i don't really know... hahaha.... but there has a club near TTS2, which is located 500m from the university.. hmm... i'm wondering... 500m.... isn's that alil shorter?? haha... it should be farther.... so do to TTS4.. 500m away.. but is the other side of TTS2... mana TTS5 pergi?? just in the middle of these 2 area... which is just beside of the university and there has a bridge linked.. hmm... anyway.... i'm staying at TTS4... there has 2 part in this TTS4.. bunglo lot and semi-d lot... i'm staying at semi-d of course... because it is 2 storey... haha... (bunglo just 1 storey). hmm... that's really kinda convinient to go to university... 15 mins walk... and my roommate will go to university every evening...ALMOST i mean... haha.... the road there... kinda scary when it is at night... haha..... just because the road light is not on sometimes.... it has once, where the whole road's lights were off in a sudden... and i was alone walking back to my hostel... can u guess wat time was it?? just right on 12... of course... is MIDNIGHT... haha.... since that time... i never walk back from university alone... hahaha....
at the first semester of my course.. foundation programme in engineering in nottingham.... duration 2 and a half months... i have just brought myself into english in physic subjects... it made me kinda frustrated at first... maybe because there has something distracting me from paying attention in the studies... wat thing was that? gotta write it out in the next article... anyway, i not want you to keep read my blog of course.. just wanted to write it as in another article bout the whole story... it has distracted me for several months.. and now i hav let it go i think. I THINK.
ok... back to the life in my university... in the foundation programme in engineering... there has several subject which is compulsory... in fact, at this first sem... all subjects are compulsory... which included... english... light, waves and electrons I.... mechanics A, basic technique Maths, Properties of Materials.... and IT??? lol... in this sem... every monday i havt wake up as 1 of the earliest guy in my hostel... just because my class starts on 10.00 AM. hmm... so... this is my time table... monday: 0900-1300; 1 hour break; 1400-1700.... tuesday: 1100-1300; 1 hour break; 1400-1700.... wednesday: 1000-1300;1 hour break; 1400-1700.... and the best day.. thursday... 1400-1700... hahaha... hmm... friday? no class... relax.... though no class, but cannot go baq home... y? saturday having LAN subject... from morning to 1430..... anyway, it is kinda bored to stay with such 'daily- routine'... of course.... there has some sports after class.... FYI, a sport centre, with the equipment of 2 badminton halls, 1 football field, 2 squash courts... 1 tennis court... 5 basketball courts... 2 foosball courts... 1 swimming pool... hmm... will be going to have 2 more tennis court i think... but anyway... i played badminton and swim only... oh ya... gymnasium..... haha... hmm.... kinda boring with the environment there.... because no any shopping complex to walk around... hmm.. should say hang around... lol.... no cinema.... no entertainment... you want to entertain yourself?? go kajang then.. haha... have to go by shuttle bus... kinda tiring... so.... no much ppl go kajang everytime just to play basically... haha....
that's fun to play around in the campus... at least can control myself not to be too over in playing.. but... it stressed me myself to study harder just to win.... someone.... now... i just felt that... actually i will never win 1 person.. He is ME.... i have lost to my soul all the time... because i just can't let everything goes easily... right after the final exam for this ZEROTH Semester... i went back Catholic High School... i had a chit chat with 1 of my favourite teacher, physic teacher, Pn. Sim. she mentioned something... "sun pei, you have to relax yourself... you got the wind up when you don't understand about the topic that i tought. you will keep asking around to understand that... so you don't need to worry that you can't get good result. but u have to worry bout your health instead.... " hahahahaha...... that's really a cool compliment from her... haha.... she told me to make myself fully relaxed during this 2 1/2 months holiday... and i did it now... but i think relax for such a long time won't be that good... so i have decided to dash up all i have left behind these few weeks.. i don't want to get rusty so fast... kakaka... what should i do.... hmm.... let's see... any opinion? hahaha...
hmm... today, 4/5/07.. cindy birthday party held on my hostel.. at TTS4, which is very near to my university campus.. a semi-D hse... everybody is here.. having fun.. but i jz dun feel really enjoying much... jz feel kinda moody today.. wat happened? hope i can be better soon..
beginning of the year.. Police Cadet has been established in my secondary school 2 yrs. this will be the second yr i joined this body. N, 2006 will be the yr which will be very bz for almost all activities should be held for Police Cadet. For example, we havt prepare for marching competition n annual camp... so, we hav decided to organize the annual camp rite after the first term exam.. which is the first 4 days of the 1st term holiday.. the bad luck started here... the camp havt to be organized n planned for the activities.. n they recommended me to plan for the activities.. n.. i did that... but.. pls note sth.. be4 the annual camp.. it will be 2 weeks of exam.. n i still need to plan for the activities.. so.. how m i going to focus on revision? but.. it's ok.. i did it done be4 the camp.. n i MUZ design for the handbook for the camp AS WELL?? hey.. that isnt my job n i hav no responsibility to do it K?? i done everything by the last day of the exam, which is the day be4 the camp.. once i reach home.. i havt bring along the handbook i created.. to duplicate for everyone. included for committee.. n participants.. then... by evening.. all committee muz go baq to school for preparation for everything.. included look around the environment? to make sure it is safety enough when participants havin the activities in the school.. oh my.. it tooks almost half of the day.. we went there.. n did everything till midnight around 3. all the gals MUZ leave school by that time.. so left guys. n.. we havt design for the FLAG for the annual camp.. included writing the term of the camp on it.. then... through out the whole camp.. i havt be 24 hours staying awake.. Y?? jz becoz i'm the one hu plan for the activities.. n they were not taking their responsibility seriously.. n.. end up wif i do everything.. in every seconds... n din sleep well for 4 days 4 nite.. most of the time were working.. n maybe around 5 hrs sleeping. too bad... be4 the camp ends... which means... the last day? I MUZ go for a course bout UBS.. for 2 days.. so.. the last day of the camp.. i havt prepare.. n wait in school for my classmates.. but end up they waited me outside of the school.. everybody waited me... for almost half an hour.. then only can go baq home rest in the evening while others can sleep in the late afternoon .. after the course finish.. left 2 days for me to rest... then i havt go for AKLTG camp... wif my fren.. aaron pek... to seremban... then... i havt work for everyday... as a runner?? swt.. for 6 days... which means... the whole hol is fulfilled wif these activities.. n i dun even hav much time in the hse...hmm... then... too bad!! my result was BLASTED??