Saturday, November 11, 2006

most unwanted feelings...

now, once again i feel very uncomfortable with classmates. i dun even know wat happened to me
that made me feel so. i'm wondering... maybe becoz i'm a stranger.. or maybe i'm not their 'type'.
i cant suit them at all... no matter doing wat task we will hav a small quarrel which brings to extreme vexation and harm to our relationships... there are alot of things that they dun even
know! and they juz thought that i'm wat they think bout me... wat made them think so.. i seriously cant stand on it anymore..
besides that, i have an extreme feeling tells me that my friends are leaving me one after another.
wat i did!?!?!?

hmm... ok... prom night and the graduation day are over. everything may juz stop right here.
hope that everything will not continue in my life path. prom night isnt wat i think that fun actually..
it was blast!! so boring with every activities.. err... i din mean to criticize the organizer juz that
those activities din giv much time enuf to play. once trying to get into the mood and the activity
ends. XD
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失眠……

谁不曾失眠过……不过,我现在却正面对着大考……是一生中最重要的其中一个大考……
我现在还没读到任何一科……并不是我不要读……而是我没心情去读……就是完全没心机啦……
现在不但没读书,还每天玩电脑……根本没自爱……我知道我必须作的东西,我却没去做……
我非做的却做到足……我到底是发生啥事了……现在离大考的时间只剩四天……我却没动到任何
科目~不但如此,我还一点担心都没~!!我到底发生啥事了……有谁能帮助我……
考试到,却没心读书……到底是啥事!!
救救我~~~
阿~~~~~~~~~

现在是……3.43am……我今天也烦了蛮多事。烦classtrip,老师是否能去、交通如何等等……
又烦class t-shirt的东西……之前我也才刚在论坛里‘走’了一圈出来……也许是我本身的问题……
如何都无法跟人相处融洽。谈久了一定会发生争执……在论坛里也吵了不少伤感事。也许我班的人
不明白为何我会说到如此……但这就是我的心里话。我就是酱……有话就直说,从不转弯抹角……
也就是酱,而害了我自己、害了他人。我好不希望这会持续下去。在酱下去友谊也就只剩‘敌’谊 ~
我承认我是固执了些、也暴躁了些,但我也在改着啊~!我非常对不起……也许我说得过火……
但我是有话直说,有屁快放的人……

无法入眠是为了啥?是否是因为某个告白……自己也无法证实……希望这答案能迎刃而解……
也在此祝全体的中五及中六生考试顺利~~
阿弥陀佛~ (god bless.... )
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Monday, November 06, 2006

Directionless...

now, once again I'm being directionless.
I can't even know what I want. Although i know SPM
is just right in front of me, I still laying back right here,
playing computer everyday, and even watch tv series
just to let the time pass. I feel that I'm a stupid and
useless person ever. I am very guilty, but I don't know
what made me have no mood to study. There's a friend
told me that force myself facing the book for at least 30 mins
or even longer, and it might help me get into the situation.
I really wish to find something that I can read and gives
me an energy N force to study well before SPM. Although
the precentage of I getting straight A's in SPM is low, I still
hope that I can get it for my full scholarship.

Maybe, now I'm thinking of LOVE too much? I really do hope
that there is a person that can brighten my thinking now
so that I won't be that PUPPY N stupid. I have being a stupid
guy who love those girls that impossible have answer since
last year. What made me like that? Anybody can tell me!?


AAaahhh..................................................
SOMEONE pls do give me some directions!!!!!
=S
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